bip bip bip.. need abducted

*backsound Yiruma - Love me* 

So random~

 

Sejenak.

Aku melihat senyummu.

Tapi itu bukan untukku.

Sejenak.

Aku melihat tawamu.

Melihat seringaimu.

Candaanmu.

Tapi *well* itu bukan untukku juga.

itu pasti buat ikan ikan di luar sana... XD

Love me.

Iringan piano Yiruma memecah malam ini.

Randomly, disaat mau nulis ini. Yang ke shuffle judulnya Love me..

Terkadang, ai berpikir. Pernah tak yah, kau inget si anak sekia reseh ini di setiap perjalananmu? 

Si anak sekia ini, kangen lho sama si jelek.. si onyet.. si ikan.. yeah.. sometimes.. i miss you so much... i dont know pelet apa yang yu pake.. sampe ai lama lama jadi gila bgini..

Aku terdiam. Berpikir. Merenung.

berkali kali ai bilang dengan lantang! I'm gettin over you freakin jerk....

besoknya *well.. i'm so sorry sudah bilang bgitu kmarin* i miss you so much.... *nangis lg di pojokan* hwahwahwa... 

it just like a... lingkaran setan... ai udah berusaha berjalan keluar.. tapi ga dapet jalan kluarnya dan akhirnya muter muter mpe bego disana.. klo sampe bego ditemenin sama yu sih gpp deh... masalahnya ai muter' disana sendirian wae...

Dan Aku terdiam (lagi). Berpikir (lagi). Dan Merenung (lagi)

Malam terakhir kita bertemu. di akhir perjalanan. di awal pertemuan.

i still remember how u kiss my forehead... still remember how u make fun of my feelin.. still remember how u hug me. still remember how u make me cry.... and i still remember.. ur cempreng voice... pas baru bangun tidur.. hahaha.. it's totally clearly in my head.. Your tatto? remember how i play with it... remember when i look at you until you shy.. ah i'm still remember... how my finger played in your skin... your tatto~ 

why its so hard to forget you... why?

ah~ i'm crying~ you're so mean to me.. padahal kita sudah tak berhubungan.. berapa lama? 3 bulan? 

i never cry for alien.. why u made me like this? huh.. 

mungkin blog ini emang dikhususkan buat yu yah... tiap buka blog ini pasti curhatnya tentang yu lagi yu lagi...

my fascinating brown.... 

well.. maybe i need my alien now..... buat pelarian? indak la... ai tidak sejahat itu sama alien... i just need.. a person who can beat you! and alien is one of a man who can beat you down.... 

bip bip bip bip bip..

i need to be abducted..

bip bip bip bip

diansutedja

hurr

well it sucks to see u online again and appear in my right bar.. again....

almost April~

I'm back...

back from what? i dont knowwww.. wuo o o o..

well dah lama yah saya tak curhat disini... 
hahaha.. too much happened..

Semalem... karena membahas si fascinating brown, gw jadi mimpiin dia..
mungkin karena iseng ntn MM7 lagi.. huiks..

i'm totally remember him clearly.. his voice.. his hugs.. his face.. his body.. his tatto.. his fascinating eye... his smile.. 

padahal uda lewat 3 bulan dari terakhir ketemu dia. dan lewat dari 2 bulan dari conve terakhir... 

dan u know what.. gw nangis pas liat dia di MM.. begitu dalamnya ternyata gw jatuh cinta sama dia.. cape deh... bayangin. i was smile, giggle then cryin when i watched him... 

get over him? always tryin... 

apalagi si alien lagi come back dari planetnya..
walau doi cuma bisa ditankep bentar bentar doank si.. tp he always can makes me laugh.. with his joke.. haha.. and i'm always love his scent.. his car scent.. and how he treat me... XD 
and u knoww, when i know he use my gift for his car key.. i'm so happyyy... hahaha.... 

so, skarang saya lagi bingung mau galauin ap... galauin fascinating brown uda ga ada artinya lagi.. XD beda kalo tiba' dia add bbm gw lg gitu...bisa pingsan kali gw.. whahwahwa... atau dia ajak ngobrol di fb.. i think my heartbeat will stop... XD

tapi ga usa mikir macem macem jg la ya.. haha.. i know him so well.. he wont come back to me.... kecuali gw dapet 1 mujizat dari Tuhan yang Maha Kuasa.... hahaha..

so, please bbm me mr alien... XD so i can forget ur freakin fuckin shitty friend... hwhahwawa...


diansutedja

made poem while waiting..

aku berusaha merangkai kata..
tapi tidak kutemukan kata yg tepat untuk merangkaimu..
aku berusaha menuangmu dalam kertas..
tapi tidak kutemukan bagaimana cara untuk memulai torehan garis ini..
aku berusaha merekammu dalam ingatanku..
tapi kau selalu berlarian tak tentu arah..

dan pada akhirnya.. disinilah aku berada..
di simpang jalan yang ramai ini.
tetapi tak dapat kutentukan arahku.. krn tak ad dirimu menemaniku dalam melangkah...

semua terlihat buram.. monokrom.. bw alias black and white..

where's my rainbow? kemana perginya pelangi yg kemarin sempat datang itu?
tak tak tak tau akupun tak tau...

diansutedja..

ke ke ker..

memang tidak slalu ad alasan untuk peduli..
tapi skrng aku sedang mencari cari alasan tersebut..
pertanyaan itu berputar putar di kepalaku..
kenapa?

ap aku terlalu cepat untuk peduli?
ap kepedulian ini salah?

berada di ujung manakah kepedulian ini?
happy or bad ending?

dari dulu aku sudah selalu bilang ke diri sendiri.. please.. dont care too much.. because u will hurt too much...
and i never learn.. i always care...

so.. am i wrong?

i'm not okay...

i'm sick...

sakit.. beneran sakit... hahahaha.... bukan sakit hati.. atau sakit jiwa...

now, i just need someone.. who can hug me.. who can calm me down... who can tell me, everything will be alright.. 

this illness gettin worse when i'm underpressure... well maybe i'm just "lebay"... but... memang gitu kenyataannya... stiap gw think too much.. underpressure masalah kerjaan.. pasti makin parah kumatnya... 

dan skrng.. gw bingung mau crita ke siapa.. mau lean my head ke siapa... 

well.. gw ga bisa terus bgini.. di saat ga ada yang bisa calm me down.. i must calm myself down.... everything will be alright... all iz well... remember D, you still have God... everything will be better.... must be better... will be better....... yes.. surely...

mau nulis aj pake galau~

i dont know.. 

mau nulis apa lagi ya..

klo galau galau lagi katanya uda ga jaman..

klo hepi hepi lagi ga hepi..

klo sedih sedih, biasa aja...

jadi... mesti nulis apa tah kita? 

terlena...

aku terlena.....

gettin over him...

Well.. Ap yang pernah gw bilang terbukti jg...

finally i'm gettin over him... and find someone better...
i wish.. i'm really wishing....... no more tears... no more sadness...

maybe its too fast.. but...
like i said before... i know but i dont know why... 

i wish u're not just a dream...

i'm happy... totally happy... :) 
i wish its not just a dream... 



diansutedja

be my rainbow.. forever rainbow...

i see a rainbow after that heavy rain... please dont go my rainbow.. please... because i still believe..... and i wanna try to believe again... :)

When You love Someone - Endah n Rhesa

I love you but it's not so easy to make you here with me

I wanna touch and hold you forever

But you're still in my dream

And I can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life

But I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone

Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will lose your chance

To make your dreams come true...

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized

I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”

And I can't stand to wait your love is coming to my life

When you love someone

Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will loose your chance

To make your dreams come true...

And I never thought that I'm so strong

I stuck on you and wait so long

But when love comes it can't be wrong

Don't ever give up just try and try to get what you want

Cause love will find the way....

When you love someone

Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will loose your chance

To make your dreams come true...

Fb aj dah suru mup on...

ah.. fb aj dah suruh move on.. -__-

so move on la, d~ 


diansutedja

New hair

Finally.. Setelah hampir 1 tahun gw potong rambut mereng mereng... hari ini di tahun 2013 gw memutuskan.
untuk. memotong. habis. rambut. gw... hahahah

tdnya mau model cepak.. tp ga dikasi ma hairdressernya... alhasil.. beginilah rambut gw,...

gw dah mulai bosen + stress jg.. makanya bisa'nya berani beraninya gw potong lngsung pendek gitu... mudah'an besok gw ga menyesal yakkkk... phew....

goodbye my hair.. goodbye my lover.....
poto gw pas masi panjang rambutnya.. iseng' di curly jg.. XD tdnya mau di curly tp kata nyokap ntr ngembang kek brokoli.. ga jadi de.. haha

salam...

diansutedja...

Happy New Year 2013

Happy New Year

Happy New Year all..

New story, new beginning, new hope..

everything will be alright..

welcome 2013..

i wish last night was my last tears... >.<

its a bad ending.. huhu..

but i believe.. theres something better ahead..

diansutedja..